Today is not a good day

So as I have said in other posts that I have Chron’s and ulcerative colitis. 

I got diagnosed with it in February of 2015.

I had had months of pain and horrible bowel movements. 

I couldn’t jump, run, or squat down without having to run to the nearest bathroom.

Playing with my kids was horrible as it included them all and it literally was hold on gotta go potty every 5 minutes. 

It was humiliating and something I just didn’t understand. 

I finally called my Dr. and explained to him about everything that was going on and of course he was like that is not normal and we need to get this checked.

I got in with a Dr and ended up having to have blood work and schedule a colonoscopy. 

Yeah that was a bit scary, but I guess anything that requires going under is pretty scary. 

After getting to the hospital and checking in I was sent to the back and had to change and wait all alone in a room all to myself. 

It was a feeling I couldn’t explain and never will. 

I was confused at what all was happening and what was going on. 

I knew something was wrong and that I needed it to be better. 

I was tired of not feeling good and not feeling normal. 

I was always off. Of course no one would ever know because I just sucked it up. 

I am a mom and that is what you do right. You worry about them and get what needs to be done for them done first. 

You don’t rush much for yourself. 

So after going in for the colonoscopy I was told that it was whT we thought it would be. 

After making an appointment he diagnosed me with both Chron’s and I ulcerative colitis since my biopsy came back as ulcerative colitis but many of my symptoms were Chron’s. 

So here I was searching and researching all about it. 

I found out what foods were great and what foods were bad.

I found many blogs about many people able to add in more and more. 

I ended up being really sick around the time of my y colonoscopy as it took a while after I was prescribed my needs for me to be okay. 

I lost 10+ lbs which was a lot for me. I ran 102 fever and was laid up on the couch for a while. 

I literally lived off shakes, chicken, and avocados.

It was a hard time and I didn’t work out for a month which is forever for me. I work out everyday. 

I lost a lot of muscle due to my lack of food and diet. I barely got 1000 calories in me a day. 

I finally was able to increase my food intake.

I found out the hard way that broccoli will never be my friend. I was laid up for hours in pain. 

Many people see us as someone with poop problems but it way more than that. 

We have difficult everyday. We have pain all day at some point. 

We don’t know what feeling normal is like. We just live with it and suck it up. 

Many have it worse than I ever will and they are such strong amazing people. 

I hope that where I am tosay is all I will ever have to be but most likely it will get worse. 

I cannot eat any raw fruits or veggies except bell peppers, butter lettuce,romaine lettuce,  cucumbers, mango, cantaloupe, and sometimes grapes. 

I have learned eshow much wine I can handle and know to take tons of enzymes when I know if I drink to much or eat something that will make me in pain. 

For the most part I try to eat super healthy and strict but every now and then I will let myself try and see how it goes. 

It’s about 50/50. I am no longer on my meds. I consume tumeric, vitamin d, vitamin c, and many more to make sure I get what my body needs as our body does not absorb nutrition from food that well. 

I hope that I don’t have to get back on my meds again. I just don’t like putting all that toxins in my body where it depends on it.

It’s a struggle everyday and I have many days I feel like sleeping all day and like I cannot move but I am a mom and I Homeschool and no matter what life will go on do I just keep sucking it up and let everyone think I am okay because they don’t get it and don’t understand. 

They see you are done and think you have nothing wrong. 

In reality we are fighting everyday. I am not Gona talk about how hard I have it as I am lucky enough to have it mildly. 

There are many others who have it farore worse than I will ever have it but we all have it and suffer in our own ways. 

We all deal in our own ways too. 

We all get our own survival methods. 

I hope and wish none of you get it or ha e to get it or have it bad. If you do I heat ya I get you and I hope you get through it.